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It has been over a year since I last updated this journal. There were a number of reasons I stopped, some are obvious to those who know me and some are not. However I have decided to permanently discontinue this journal, and this note is just to formalise this.

I do have a WordPress journal that I update regularly, however it is totally geared towards my work, and not my personal life. If you think you'll get anything out of reading it, I invite you to find it and subscribe. I think you'll be wasting your time if you can't find it given this command:

echo jgjgj@fgcvebfngaqergbg9@pbgz/ogybtg | tr a-z@. n-za-m.@ | tr 9 u | tr -d t

Best,

Spiros

So I walked, lost, through woods at sunset,
but quickly the globe disappeared to the West,
and I thought 'how symbolic of me',
and in my self-appointed exile,
I sat calmly in a Solea that the trees made for me

I then realised my first gift to you was a knife,
or maybe it was your gift to me,
and sometimes I see it hovering above my head,
threatening to cut my throat, my permanent Kuzushi,
and I guess it's right that I confront it,
and realise that I'm only confronting myself,
Suddenly I am a Thane of Glamis.

Because it's also my greatest irony, and my undoing;
the greatest dagger of my mind is the setting sun,
that threatens never to rise again,
how funny, that something so beautiful,
can also be so painful,

The parable of the Dragnet leads me to believe otherwise,
but it seems that all men are tested in life,
and my test is to survive the darkness,
and in the light, to fear the coming darkness,

So while I beg to prove the content of my being,
I ask myself, why do I not fear this sunset?
Whilst I sit in the Solea, with the trees blackening around me?
Does the knife no longer have its potency?

Maybe it is that life comes into focus,
in one of those rare moments, God himself stands before me,
and the two selves that are at once me,
cry havok, and let slip the dogs of war.

One screams Why?, with the rage of a trapped animal,
tormented with the hot poker, and given voice for an instant,

The other races, with urgency that drowns out the noise, to deliver its message,
unspeakable, and unknowable, a mere tick, as if a clock strikes midnight,
and then begins a new day, that ultima hora in which all three hands are together,

and then not,

in that tiny space of time,
I knew everything, and nothing,
was awed, and humbled,
as I comprehended my place and role, purpose, and my test,
and I stood up, and carried on walking into the night.

in case anyone's interested, this is where Claire and I go to church.

1. My 'ex' is still...a good and valued friend

2. I am listening to...the sound of El Noisy bastard, AKA my g4 whirring away

3. Maybe I should... go to bed

4. I love...conversation of any sort.. and claire

5. My bestfriend(s)...understand me, are commited, don't let me down, and think of me without being prompted

6. I don't understand...why people choose to be chavs

7. I lost my respect for...brunel security, that little of which I already had

8. I last ate..a bowl of chips and a pint of Guinness.. you caught me on an off night

9. The meaning of my status display is...'away' hopefully it is self explanitory, but sometimes people don't understand quite what that means. Allow me to elaborate - If I am 'away' it means one of two things. Either I am out of the country or out of range of a computer, which is likely, or I simply am too busy/want to be alone and have set my status to 'away' in the hopes that people won't be offended should I take longer than a few days to respond to their messages.

10. Love is...a shower, a shave, a good meal, mass, and the whole of Sunday to relax and talk to Claire

11. Somewhere...I hope you're not expecting "over the rainbow," because although my initial reaction would be to think of my lost Crucifix.. in fact, screw it - somewhere, in the world, is my Orthodox crucifix. I lost it. It is about an inch tall, varnished wood with IXYS burned into it, blessed by the Partiarch and sent to me on my birthday. If anyone finds it they will gain my good karma for life.

12. I will always...remember how you made me feel

13. Love seems to be...the greatest treasure this world can offer

14. I never ever want to lose...my faith

15. My mobile phone is...tragically both my greatest fear and yet the source of some of my greatest joy

16. When I woke up this morning...I switched off the alarm, and went back to sleep

17. I get annoyed at...the Catholic Church excercising its none-existant authority to change the liturgy every five minutes

18. Parties... no thanks - i'll have a taverna, a pitcher of wine, a guitar and five good friends. And some olives

19. My pet(s)...exist only in my mind

20. Kisses...are like little shots of heroine. You have one, it's great, then five minutes later you wish for another

21. Today I...finished the pendulum, worked, ruined a pizza and watched family guy

22. I wish..someone responsible is elected to be in charge of this country

23. I really want...Claire

Finish the sentence...

1. I've come to realize that my last kiss...should always be performed as though it were my first, my last, my only.

2. I am listening to...pink noise

3. I talk...only when I have to

4. I love...moments of lucidity in the chaos that is upstairs

5. I really want to be...a foot taller

7. Tonight I will...sleep like a brick

8 Tomorrow it will be...The observance of the feast of Saint Lazarus

9. I hate it when people ask..is that your real name?

10. Marriage is...something I shall one day consider

11. Somewhere, someone is thinking...essay, please write yourself while I sleep

12. I'll always remember...that if I had worked a little harder, I wouldn't have ended up here.

13. I have a crush...on Eva Green!

14. The last time I cried was because...something upset me?!

15. When I wake up in the morning...the sunlight hurts my eyes

18. Right now I am thinking about...my new camera :)

19. Babies are...a blessing and a gift

20. I go on facebook...because the alternatives don't bear thinking about.

21. Today I...violated the Computer Misuse Act of 2001

everyone else do this! :D

So yesterday was the Ash Wednesday service, Claire and I met up for the 9pm mass, sparsely attended, but it was a solemn mass which I always appreciate once in a while. I also managed to finish the Pendulum assignment, which I'm quite pleased with, and will post it online for people to play with at some point. It's 16 megabytes though, so might take some time.
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So living at Brunel, you kinda get used to being shot at, so it was no surprise when these appeared in our kitchen:










In case you're wondering, that's a high powered rifle, 9mm shells fired from a range of about 30 metres away, through the double glazing . I just hope they don't make us pay for the damage.

Well, the lenses are sorted, in the end I ditched the sigma mini-zoom as it suffered from lots of pincushion at the top end and Vignetting at the bottom.
• Nikon DX 18-70mm main lens
• Sigma APO 70-300mm zoom lens

sorted :D

So i'm on the train, back to the suck. Can't say i'm happy to be going back, but I have done a lot of travelling, and I'm looking forward to sleeping it off tomorrow.

Claire's reading week ended, so on Saturday after lunch we headed to Finsbury park to drop off her stuff. We spent a few hours in Camden, browsing vintage shops in search of long skirts/dresses, as Claire is (rightly) treating herself for easter. We then grabbed a train to Norbury for AJ's birthday party, which was excellent - as well as all the multimedia family being there, there was some great home-made Indian food, top-shelf booze and cameras all round. It was a shame to get the last train at 11-20.

This morning, after mass, the weather was reasonable, so I took Claire to Richmond. We had a Wagamama's lunch, browsed the department stores/charity shops and then wandered along to the bridge, but sadly due to global warming, the Thames had burst its banks, and part of the promenade was underwater. Claire got a few good photos. Anyway, so we returned to Finsbury Park, watched Ugly Betty, and now I'm heading back to sUxbridge. On the menu this week - dissertation, and I must start my composition assignment - an Angus Dei, in a Sigur Ros/Zimmer kind of style.

Anyway that's me up to date, its been a great weekend, and my sigma 70-3OOmm APO is on its way!

I am now the proud owner of a brand new Nikon D80 dSLR, with a (cheapskate) nikkor 28-80mm D series zoom lens.

In the pipeline is a Sigma EX series 24-50mm, the one with the constant F2.8 aperture and the APO Series 70-300mm zoom with F4-5.6 UV and Polarising filters all round, and with a little luck, an SB28-DX flash.

:D :D :D



oh yeah, and also Claire :D